Literature
We will never be of the same age again
I always felt like
I was going to die
young;
yet, as years go by,
I'm slowly losing this bet
I've made against myself.
So here I am
living -
still doing things for the first time
like eating sushi,
meeting people,
new places
&
every time
I live something for the first time
I think of you
and how your list
of first things
is never going to grow out
to be more than it was
last november.
The first bite of cake I had
after you died
was the worst.
Enjoying
the small things
while going on living
felt unfair
to you,
but month after month
I learned to let go
of the guilt.
I've folded the memory of you
and hid it in my heart -
I often take it o
